Balancing an outgoing personality with anxiety isn’t so different from being a superhero. On one hand, you have Bruce Wayne; on the other, you’ve got the Batman. One is an outgoing socialite, and the other is dark and mysterious. Still, same person. This idea applies to basically every other superhero — except, maybe, for Spider-Man. Peter Parker and his web-slinging alias are essentially the same, not accounting for a bit more bravery under the spandex suit. That being said, there are plenty of people who suffer the throes of anxiety along with the extroverted inclinations of an outgoing personality. Keep reading to find out exactly how these personalities exists side by side (and what it’s basically like being a superhero).
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1. Back and forth. If one thing is basically a guarantee when you fit this category, it’s that the daily grind will hardly ever be dull. However, that’s not to say it’ll necessarily be pleasant. Imagine being a roller coaster — not being on a roller coaster, but actually being a roller coaster. That should more or less describe what it feels like sharing equal parts anxiety with an equal parts outgoing personality.
2. You’re a conundrum. You’re very aware of your perplexing personality. Even you can’t keep up with yourself. Part of you wants to keep it all together, but the other part of you gave up yesterday. You just can’t (but you must!). No, you just can’t (but you must!). The struggle is real.
3. The more you say, the more you overthink. On the outside, you’re in control of the situation. If you’re talking in a group about a given subject, you have no trouble taking the lead. Then again, you kind of do have trouble. Every word that falls out of your mouth is slicing through an analytical filter like cheese on a grater. The thoughts and words are all there — but they’re everywhere. It’s a mess.
4. The second-guesser. The anxiety is taking a toll on your confidence — which you think you wear well. A simple conversation can be all too much, even though you enjoy indulging in them. Excited though you may be over a subject, your anxiety is going to fight you nearly to the death before letting you feel good about verbalizing your thoughts. So, really, it’s not just anxiety — it’s deeply troubled confidence.
5. The over-thinker. You want to trust everyone. For the most part, you hold everybody (especially those closest to you) in high regard. But there’s a snake slithering through your mind, and that snake is called uncertainty. It goes where it pleases. It sets up shop. It keeps your rationality at bay. Before you know it, you’ve become the least trustworthy among all of your closest company. If only you could explain to them that it wasn’t your fault…
6. Sensitivity is an understatement. You’re not depressive, you’re an enthusiast. You look on the bright side of life, even though there’s a torrential storm that always seems to be roaming somewhere off in the distance. Simple, emotional gestures make you mentally twitch. Your feelings are heavier than they probably ought to be. You’re constantly dodging mental wrecking balls whilst balancing on an emotional tightrope.
7. You’re wrong, says you. You are seriously your worst enemy. You know you have it in you to be better at socializing. You know you enjoy it. Yet you talk yourself out of everything, even things you’ve already said or committed to. It’s all in your head, but you think everyone shares the same opinion of you.
9. The boiling pot. You can’t cool off. Something deep inside of you makes it impossible. Even when you try to relax, you blame yourself for not being able to relax in the first place. If only you could cool yourself down (a feat easier said that done).
10. Social moth. While everyone else is clinging to each other, you’re clinging to the lightbulb in the far corner. You want to be present, but you find it so difficult to jump in. Despite your genuine yearning for company, the closer you try to step towards it, the farther it seems to be.
11. You assume everyone thinks the wrong things. Every time you jump to a conclusion in your head, you have to justify it. But when you justify it, you have to justify justifying yourself! Eventually, you get yourself to the point where you don’t even remember why you’re justifying yourself, and that make you feel worse. All the while, whoever’s in your company has clearly been reading your mind, and now you have to justify your thoughts to them, even though they have no idea what is even happening. It’s insanity wrapped up in clarity.
12. The demon of false manifestation. You are well aware that the world is not out to get you… but something is off. You think you know what it is. The people you’re with would probably prefer you weren’t there. That’s just fine, you tell yourself. You don’t need to be there. Might as well leave. By the time your anxiety has taken the reigns, you’ve already convinced yourself that you’ll be better off without them, even though, deep down inside, there’s a fraction of yourself that knows that can’t really be true.
13. You’re not faking. You seem personable enough, so when you meet new people they think you’re after attention when you claim to have trouble accepting that they like you around. Unfortunately, you’re not in control of your anxiety. You may be able to harness some control — somehow — but it’s not so easy and it’s not an act. You wish it was! At least then you’d be able to pick and choose who you let into your world.
14. Better not… You imagine that people think you’re being ridiculous and childish, and for this reason alone, you convince yourself that they can do better. Who wants to bother with you anyway, right? Everyone seems to get annoyed by you no matter what you do. The harder you try to get better, the more your anxiety shuts you down. Not today, it may as well say. Not tomorrow, either.
15. Conviction. Your anxiety is real. It’s not an act. You’re not seeking attention. If someone could relate, then they’d understand. It’s your anxiety causing problems, and sometimes the best remedy is finding someone who accepts your issue, or can even relate. Sure, you need to try. You need to make attempts at understanding what triggers you, but at the same time, you need to allow people in who will give you the benefit of the doubt. They’re out there. It’s up to you to let them in.
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